Thursday, October 28, 2010
Yesterday my husband got laid off due to budget cuts where we work. Seems like we were smooth sailing along, I was getting back into the groove of working out, we were excited about our future...and suddenly, without warning, we got this bomb shell dropped on us.
But, I'm trying to stay positive, you know, seeing the glass half full? And I have many reasons to be that way. Thank goodness we sold the house and I make enough money that I can cover all the bills under my paycheck alone. Also, Aaron should be able to qualify for unemployment no problem.
This could very well turn into a big oppurtonity for us. He isn't just going to look for jobs around here, but nationwide. I am also going to start looking (hope my HR doesn't read my blog). There are many places we'd be interested in living, and there are only so many times in your life you can change the state in which you live.
After all this happened yesterday I fell off the wagon for a little bit. I had 3 pieces of pepperoni pizza. "Boooo! Hssssss!" Then I went to the grocery store and got some vanilla ice cream. But, I am so thankful for this, Aaron looked at me and said, "Let's not use this as an excuse to be unhealthy, let's do the opposite."
So I still had the ice cream, but only one serving of it. And I mean the REAL 1 serving that is like 1/4 of a cup!
This morning I felt much better, though I didn't get up and do the elliptical, because let's face it people, Aaron and I both needed some hug time.
So, life is crazy. I'm trying not to feel so weirded out that I stop making progress. I'm excited at the prospect of changing up our lives! And wouldn't it be great if I could be a healthy, maybe even thin me when that happens?
Hope everyone is doing well.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Here a random list of things I'm proud of:
Almost 10 of those miles were running.
And it looks like next Wednesday the mileage will be even higher!
And even more of the miles will be from running.
I have been tracking my workouts.
I have been waking up in the morning and doing 30-60 minutes on the elliptical.
Then I get ready and ride my bike to work.
Then When I get home I run/walk 45 minutes.
I have gone from running 90 seconds to running two minutes and walking 60 seconds in between.
Yesterday I forgot my shoes at work, but I didn't let that stop me from running.
I borrowed a pair of Aaron's and headed out the door.
Yesterday I didn't feel tired so I ran for 5 minutes strait.
Then I took a short break and ran for 8 minutes strait.
I have been watching my calories and eating, and I have been writing it down for the last three days.
I have been bringing my lunch to work and cooking dinner at night.
I have actually done my sit-ups the last two days.
I feel better.
I like myself more.
My calves are starting to look toned again and the rolls on my stomach and back are not as prominent.
I'm starting to dream athletic dreams again.
I'm challenging myself.
I'm not backing down.
Those 2 pounds had a lot of stuff in them :) It is a good day!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I know, I could hear your gasp of shock all the way down here in Houston, Texas. But, the last week or so I've been trying to run a little bit. I'm certainly not covering any great distances or going as fast as lightning. But I am getting out there and running.
I can't say that I enjoy it yet. It starts out painful. Yesterday it took 20 minutes for my right calf to stop cramping and then my left calf started up. But somewhere around 35 minutes they didn't hurt anymore and I was shocked to realize that the pain was gone. It didn't feel good, but it didn't hurt.
One of my main gripes about running is that there is no momentum. On a bike, you get moving and it feels good. There is always this forward momentum. But with running...well, you are constantly striving to create that momentum, and if you stop, even for a second, that momentum is out the window.
I read an article today called The Grossman Motivation Series, Part I: Dismiss Distractions.
The author said what I am trying to say but in a much better way;
Running is difficult mainly because, "You have to cause your run."
This rings so true to me. You have to cause everything, not just putting on your shoes and getting out the door...but every step you have to cause it.
But for some reason, instead of swaying me, realizing that little fact makes me want to get out there and push myself, to cause that run to happen. Because when I do there is such pride in me. I feel more accomplished going for a 2 mile run than I do a 25 mile bike ride. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the cycling more. There is just something about pushing yourself, and the only person you have to compete with out there is yourself.
I still don't like running.
It is going to be really hard for me to make myself get out the door this evening.
But I am really starting to suspect that, if I stick with this, I might become a runner.
Monday, October 25, 2010
So, I can't believe it, but I'm doing good. This weekend was full of fun adventures!
I ran/walked the Kemah Bridge! I ran 90 seconds, walked 60 seconds, and I did that 25 times which equals a total of 62.5 minutes of exercise! I crossed the bridge 4 times total. The total distance was 3.8 miles.
And get this! It was a BLAST! It was beautiful too! I got to see the sunrise and there were pelicans flying all over the place and there were lots of people there running and biking. I kept thinking, "Man these people are CRAZY! But that must mean I'm crazy because I'm here too." And that made me feel like a bad ass :)
Yes, I felt very accomplished and I will definitely be back for more.
Sunday morning Helen and I rode out to a farmer's market called Froberg's. Was a 26.2 mile ride all together. I bought; grapes, an apple, an small sugar-free apricot pie, granola, trail mix, and some blackberry preserves (which I made a peanut butter & jelly sandwich with today for lunch. Can't wait to try it). It was really beautiful out there. Next weekend we are going to up the mileage a bit and ride out to Twin Lakes, which is a scuba training lake where you can also do open water swimming. I'm very excited! It feels great to spend time outside!
Last, but not least, Friday Aaron texted me and said, "Are you going to get me a present?" I know this sounds random, but it is just how we operate. So, I'm trying to think of some fun and small gift, and it just so happened I was at Academy. We have been talking about trying Tennis for a while, so I got a couple of rackets and tennis balls. Let's just say he was pretty surprised :) Well, Sunday afternoon we tried them out. There is a tennis court right by our apartment and we spend about 30 minutes trying to hit the ball back and forth. He had played tennis when he was younger, but I have literally never held a racket. Still, it was lots of fun and definitely a good workout! What is even better is Aaron said he'd like to try and do that in the evenings on the weekdays! I am so excited to do something outside and active with him!
Hot 100 Update
Going the distance from Houston, Texas to New Orleans, LA - Doing okay. My mileage is inching along, and I really like that part of my challenge. Almost to the town of Vintan, LA on a map. I'm pretty sure I'll be to Lake Charles by Friday!
Getting into a size 14 - I am feeling thinner. My pants don't seem to be as tight as they were a couple of weeks ago.
Situps - OMG, I am TERRIBLE! I keep thinking I'll do to them and I haven't done a single one!! That's it, tonight I WILL do them. Every day this week. I just need to get started then I know I'll do it every day.
Friday, October 22, 2010
"Sometimes you feel like a nut!"
That was me this week. Completely and totally nutty. And not in a good way. Let's just say it was that time AND there was a full moon out. I mean seriously, I felt like I was turning to a Werewolf. An emotional, distraught PMS werewolf.
But I woke up this morning, and resisting the urge to crawl back into bed, I downed a granola bar, grabbed my mp3 player and a book, and then I jumped on the Elliptical for an hour.
IT WAS AWESOME.
Awesome Workout - Elliptical, 1 Hour, Hills Setting.
Awesome Music - PowerGlove, Retro Video Game Music Hair Metal Style.
Awesome Book - Born to Run by Christopher McDougall
So yeh, I have to talk about this book. This book is changing something in me. It is changing that I detest even the thought of running. I didn't think reading could ever do this, but this book IS!
Here's the description from Amazon:
"Full of incredible characters, amazing athletic achievements, cutting-edge science, and, most of all, pure inspiration, Born to Run is an epic adventure that began with one simple question: Why does my foot hurt? In search of an answer, Christopher McDougall sets off to find a tribe of the world’s greatest distance runners and learn their secrets, and in the process shows us that everything we thought we knew about running is wrong.
Isolated by the most savage terrain in North America, the reclusive Tarahumara Indians of Mexico’s deadly Copper Canyons are custodians of a lost art. For centuries they have practiced techniques that allow them to run hundreds of miles without rest and chase down anything from a deer to an Olympic marathoner while enjoying every mile of it. Their superhuman talent is matched by uncanny health and serenity, leaving the Tarahumara immune to the diseases and strife that plague modern existence. With the help of Caballo Blanco, a mysterious loner who lives among the tribe, the author was able not only to uncover the secrets of the Tarahumara but also to find his own inner ultra-athlete, as he trained for the challenge of a lifetime: a fifty-mile race through the heart of Tarahumara country pitting the tribe against an odd band of Americans, including a star ultramarathoner, a beautiful young surfer, and a barefoot wonder.
With a sharp wit and wild exuberance, McDougall takes us from the high-tech science labs at Harvard to the sun-baked valleys and freezing peaks across North America, where ever-growing numbers of ultrarunners are pushing their bodies to the limit, and, finally, to the climactic race in the Copper Canyons. Born to Run is that rare book that will not only engage your mind but inspire your body when you realize that the secret to happiness is right at your feet, and that you, indeed all of us, were born to run."I am not finished with this book, but I'm sure I will be by the end of this weekend. And so far it is one of the best books I have every read. Quickly becoming one of my favorites. It talks about the joy of the human spirit and that is what running IS. Have you ever been so happy getting out of work that you literally want to SPRINT to your car? I have, and I thought I was insane. But turns out, that is just happiness at its most basic form. After 60 minutes on the elliptical I was so pumped that I started racing the clock...really trying to get to 600 calories burned before it ran out. I got to 598 and I was laughing so hard. That poor elliptical just wasn't ready for me.
Okay, I'm planning on doing a full review of this book when I'm finished, but for now I'll just leave you with a really cool quote;
"Beyond the extreme of fatigue and distress, we may find amounts of ease and power we never dreamed ourselves to own; sources of strength never taxed at all because we never push through the obstruction." - William James
I hope you have an awesome day! Thanks for reading :)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
2. Right now I'm reading Born to Run by Christopher McDougall and I'm really enjoying it. It is making me want to run. Crazy, I know!
3. Lately I've been using the website DailyMile to record exercise. I really enjoy it. Similar to Facebook in the commenting system. If you are on there please add me as a friend :)
4. This last week I saw the movie HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON and loved it! Like, loved it so much I was exclaiming aloud about, "Oh no! I hope the Dragon is ok!" Definitely a MUST see!
5. I am loving our apartment. Who knew that life really would be better after moving out of the house. It is time that society face not everyone needs to live in or own a house now. Life can be good without it.
6. My favorite snack this week has been strawberry greek yogurt mixed with Bear Naked Granola. Yum!
7. I don't feel like doing any work today. Luckily I am leaving early for a doctor's appointment, and I don't plan on coming back ;) I am planning on going for a walk/run instead.
8. I miss my friend Candice, and I'm about to Instant Message her to see if I can trick her into going to lunch with me sometime soon.
9. I already have two exercise things planned this weekend with my friend Helen. #1, on Saturday we are going to run the Kemah Bridge a few times (well, she is going to run, I'm going to run/walk), and #2, Sunday, we are going to ride our bikes out to a farmer's market and back. Hoping to log between 35-40 miles.
10. I FINALLY got an mp3 player last night. Loaded it up with music, so I'm really excited to get my run on with it :)
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
As always, watching The Biggest Loser made me start thinking about weight loss and health, and ways to lose weight, and the psychology of it all. Two things really stuck out in my head above everything else I thought about.
1. I still really want to lose weight. 2. I don't want to define my worth by how much weight I lose.
I still really want to lose weight, that is all there is to it. I know it isn't going to be fast. I don't really want it to be. I just want to get there eventually. Maybe by 2012 maybe by 2013. Just eventually I'd like to see myself below 160. You see, I'm really trying not to set these super awesome goals that make a bad day seem like a huge failure. I would just like to gradually snake my way down there.
Things that help me remember not to freak out about my weight are that I'm already married with a husband that loves me. I don't have to attract anyone else. Would it be nice to have a guy take a second glance? Hell yeh! But it isn't necessary. Sometimes, and this makes me feel like a bit of a bad wife, that is my PRIMARY reason for wanting to lose weight. I want men to be attracted to me. I guess it is one of those basic animalistic desires...to be wanted. Anyway, getting over this will actually help a lot.
Also, as I've addressed before, I need to stop constantly seeking people's approval and thinking their affirmation will make me happy or more valuable. I won't go on and on about that, because I've addressed it before.
I don't want to define my worth by how much weight I lose. Sorry, I've gotta dog on The Biggest Loser a bit here. I just get so tired of the emphasis they put on LOSING the weight. Last night when they were doing the weigh in almost all of the people were in tears over losing five pounds or even nine pounds saying things like, "I hope this is a big enough number to make me valuable to my team."
Well doesn't that just say it all? That is how I feel a lot of the time. I know I'm not on any team and I know no friend is going to disown me because I haven't lost the weight I have set out to lose. But I certainly feel like I base much of my value on how much I've lost.
I originally lost 80 pounds. Now I've gained some back. Now I've only lost 45 pounds.
That is SO hard to say. I am even now thinking subconsciously, "I hope people skip this post. I hope they don't read it so they don't see that." I placed so much value on the fact that I'd lost 80 pounds! It felt sooo good. How can I renig? How can I go back? People won't look at me the same way!
Oh it is so stupid, and I KNOW that. But it is an emotion I have to look in the face and deal with if I ever want to change it.
Goals are never ending. We cannot expect that reaching a goal will make us any happier than we are when we are trying to reach it. Because once you reach a goal you have a whole other set of goals. Think about it? When will you be done? After you buy a car? No, because then you want a house with a garage to store it in. After the house? No, because then you want to upgrade the appliances? After you upgrade? No, because then you want to have kids. After kids? No, because then you want to raise them right and put them through college...
And the list goes on.
Goals aren't a bad thing. But I think we, as a society, really need to get our story strait. It isn't about the end result, it is about the journey. I usually HATE when people say that. I hate it because often times it comes from a person who has no direction in life and is just looking for an excuse to be lazy, haha. But you can have goals and still enjoy the journey. I guess what I'm getting at is you don't set goals for the end result, you set them, from the beginning, because you want to experience that journey.
Let me repeat that again, because it just really sunk in for me:
You don't set goals for the end result, you set them, from the beginning, because you want to experience that journey.
I want to experience the journey of weight loss and getting healthy.
So let's address something else....when do you ever associated experiences, journeys, positive things with losing something. Yep, pretty much NEVER. You GAIN something when you on on a journey or have a positive experience. We are constantly saying we are on a Weight Loss Journey. If you really think about it, it is such a contradictory way of saying what I'm after.
What am I REALLY after? We should say things like;
A Health Crusade, a Life Journey, an Exercise Immersion, an Athletic Adventure, an Experience Extravaganza!
NOW we're talking! THOSE terms get me pumped. Screw this weight loss journey bull crap!!
Okay, I know I've gone on an on, so let me return to my Title and original points.
I weighed in today.
Did I just hear a crowd in the distance booing? Honestly, that is what I heard in my head.
Guess what the scale said?
Well that is what it said after I calculated a simple equation in my head:
What I Weighed Today - What I Weighed Today = ZERO
I know you might be thinking I'm crazy, but trust me on this. You must not have read the instructions on your scale correctly if you are getting a number like 250. That is so wrong. Because this is what you are supposed to do.
You take the number of your original weigh in. Every time you weigh in you SUBTRACT the new weigh in number. Today I got ZERO because it was my first weigh in, but next we it might be 1, 2, 3.
These numbers are a lot less scary then seeing 229 or 331.
And they are positives. Not negatives, like "I lost 5 pounds"...No I want to gain five pounds of experiences!
I have decided to go on a journey to 20. Just like I am journeying from Houston to New Orleans on my ticker over to the right which I am loving. Even if some days I only add a mile, it is neat to see me GOING somewhere! I am going to journey from ZERO (today's number) to 20. There will be another goal after that. There always is. But right now I just want to get to 20.
This number will not define me.
I don't really care when I get to it.
Might not be until this time next year.
But I'm going on a journey to 20.
20 great experiences!
20 Life lessons!
Okay, you probably think I'm crazy now. But thanks for reading :)
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I'm thankful for...
His hugs, especially the ones I don't expect.
When he says nice things like, "I'm so happy I get to be with you."
When he kisses me softly.
When he kisses me passionately.
When he smiles at me.
When he laughs at something I say.
When he touches my cheeks.
My dogs, Rex & Reeses.
When Rex wiggles at me and his eyes get all big.
When Reeses jumps on me and wags her tail.
When Rex curls up next to me when I'm reading a book.
When Reeses randomly decides to jump on my lap.
When they both make a little kid happy when they get to pet them.
When I get paid :)
When everyone is out for the day.
When I get to use the computer to read blogs!
When they make me laugh.
When they encourage me.
When they share silly things that make them happy with me.
When the cool breeze wipes the sweat away.
On a down hill, that isn't too steep.
When I push even if I keep thinking I can't do it.
When it suddenly doesn't hurt.
When the water smells like summertime in junior high school.
When I get so hungry after wards and eat a sandwich & chips.
When we reminisce.
When they support me.
When we laugh.
I forget just how many things I'm thankful for sometimes.
Thanks for reading :)
Monday, October 18, 2010
Now imagine one driver gets pissed, starts honking at the kids, yelling at them, even drives by and swerves at them!!
What would you think?
I agree. But let's face it. School bus stops are inconveniencing. I certainly sit there slightly annoyed, sometimes I tap my fingers impatiently. But, in the end, I realize we all have to help each other out, keep each other safe, and the slight inconvenience I experience when waiting on those kids is not that important.
I'm not really writing about school bus stops. I really want to talk about the need for motorists to safely and considerately share the road with cyclists (just like they share it with school buses and other vehicles).
I have been commuting to work on my bike for the last week. I know that I have not encountered everything possible, but I have seen enough to feel like I am justified in writing a post about. On average I get honked at twice a day, I get swerved at once, and today I got yelled at for the first time by some guy who took the time to roll down his window and say "Hey stupid!"
The point is...
I know I might be a slight inconvenience when you have to slow down to 15mph.
I know you wish I would hug the curb so you could pass in the same lane as me.
I know you'd like to honk to say "Hey, you! I'm a car and you're not!"
But, I'm just trying to ride safely. I'm just trying to be healthy. And I have a right to be on the road because a bicycle is a vehicle too.
So please stop honking!! Please stop swerving! And if you are going to shout something at me, please come up with something more witty than "Hey Stupid!"
Instead of getting angry, why don't you smile, slow down, and give me a thumbs up. Because I'm huffing and puffing, trying to get out of your way. And it would be nice to actually get encouraged for once.
(I'd like to note, that I always try to abide by the laws when I cycle and be courteous. I know that some cyclists out there do not. Please don't judge all of the rest of us by their actions.)
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
It's almost that time again! Time for the BP MS150!! I'm very excited because this year I'm going to:
- Start Training Earlier (This Sunday in fact)
- Train More!
- Do as many of the recommended training rides as possible because I actually have $$$ to do them!
- Get clipless peddles...getting these tomorrow, yikes!
- Be on the St. Arnold's Brewery Team! Which I signed up for today!!!
- Meet my husband at the finish line! He didn't get to make it last year, but this year I already got a hotel so we can party it up that night!
- I'm going to LOOOONG route this year! Oh yeh baby! That's 99.56 miles the first day and 74.1 miles the second day! Totally: 173.66 miles!! (okay getting a little less excited after typing that, lol)
More to come!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
But there is a problem.
You are probably thinking the problem is embarrassment. It isn't that I'm embarrassed to bare it all on the internet, even though I am in many ways. I can overcome that.
The problem is; I was thinking of this picture and I was trying to think of what I could say about all these body parts, good things to say...and other than my thighs...I can't think of a single thing.
That is the problem. Not my body, but my perspective of my body. I should be able to think of good things about the parts of me. But I can't, I simply can't.
But I'm going to change that. I want to learn to love my body, mainly these parts:
On 1/1/2011 I will expose myself to the world,
and by that date I will think of reasons to love the above parts of me,
Are you ready to expose yourself?
If not..maybe you should start thinking about why.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
What is best in life?
Well, to me;
What is best in life?
Training, I like training. I like riding my bike, I like swimming, and I actually enjoy run/walking. I really do enjoy these things.
Food, I enjoy food. I enjoy healthy food more than anything. I enjoy sodas with real sugar. I like fruit and vegetables.
I like feeling healthy and feeling good about myself.
I didn't lose much weight this year. That is the simple fact of the matter. But for the first 6 months of the year I felt GREAT about myself! I felt pretty, athletic, healthy, sexy even! When did I lose sight of that I can feel that way without being skinny???
I'm not saying that I don't want to lose weight. I do. But my main motivation behind wanting to lose weight is WRONG. I want ATTENTION. This is a reoccurring theme isn't it? I am always seeking affirmation and other people's approval. Oh man, it feels SOOO good when people compliment me about losing weight. I crave it. But if no one says anything, then I give up. Or if someone else is losing more weight than I am, and they get the compliments...man, I get SO jealous. I get so jealous that I give up and binge.
I don't want to be that person. I don't want to lose weight to get attention. I want to be the person that loses weight because they are living a lifestyle where the weight goes away on its own. A lifestyle where I'm training and not stressing and sleeping. And not binging, since I'm not constantly forcing myself to adhere to a diet and failing. And eating healthy just because that food makes me happy and makes me feel good.
I can't do this anymore.
I have to stop dieting.
I have to stop trying to lose weight.
I feel like this is really against the flow of most people's mindsets. And I'm not saying those people are wrong. It works for a lot of people. But I am beginning to realize that I am a very selfish and conceited person. It is not the person I want to be in life.
So, after that loooong winded thought process I'll conclude like this.
If you are reading this, tell me, What is Best in Life?
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Well, there was one thing I did like about the show last night. And that was the message of, "If you want it, ask for it." Basically, assert yourself! So many people don't want to cause problems, they don't want to cause controversy, so much so that they become living breathing door mats! There is a time and a place to put others needs before yours, but there is also a time and a place to put your needs before others.
On the Biggest Loser last night there was this guy named Aaron, and he didn't do so good on the weigh in. He seemed like a very chill easy going guy, but he also appeared to be uninspired. He ended up being in the bottom half of the contestants and would have to do one last challenge, and would potentially be going home. Unless, he could convince this one guy that he deserved immunity. Aaron waited and waited, and didn't talk to the Immunity Guy. All the other contestants were crying and telling Immunity Guy why they deserved to stay on the show. Then they showed a clip of a workout where the trainer Bob was screaming at them, "If you want something, just reach out and take it!" (Or something along those lines.)
That is when the light bulb went off in Aaron's head. After the workout he went and talked to Immunity Guy about how he really did want to stay on the show. And guess who got immunity? That's right, Aaron. So, yay! Let's all shed a few happy tears, and then think about what you and I can learn from this story.
We are not always going to get 'Immunity'. Sometimes life doesn't work out. But you should still reach out and take what you want/need/deserve. Sometimes this is just something you do. Like me going buying that food for the 21 Day Challenge, or if I really want some new bike gear, if I just take the plunge and spend the money. Sometimes I feel like I have to justify these purchases, especially in my relationship with Aaron. But what I need to realize is that it is okay to have give AND take. He doesn't mind, he wants me to have the things I desire and need. Why do I always feel like I have to give, give, give? And don't think for one second that I'm sitting here saying that I am selfless. I am nothing of the sort. I am selfish, because the reason I give, give, give? I want to be a martyr. I want people to praise me and think I'm selfless. It is a dark truth about myself, and I am a bit ashamed of it. But, all I can do is learn from this.
Then there's the asking part of being assertive. Sometimes you have to ask or tell someone what you want. This is hard for me because I fear conflict, again probably because I want to impress everyone with my wonderful 'glue' skills (meaning, the way I am commonly referred to as the 'glue' in relationships.) I'm sick of this too. I WANT things, so I'm going to ASK for them. I know me better than anyone else, so why do I feel I need to wait for something to figure out what I want/need/deserve? That is the most ineffective way to get anything! So ask for things and tell people what you want! I am really digging this 21 day challenge. The food is pretty good and it is so simple. Plus a nutritionist from Fit Foods emails me every day with encouragement and to see how I'm doing. They have also been asking for my weight every day...At first I was like, "Okay, didn't know I was supposed to report that EVERY day." I've had problems with focusing on my weight before and becoming obsessed with the numbers. I don't want to do that anymore. So I realized their was a simple solution. I am going to ASK if it is okay if I only weigh in once, maybe twice, a week. I am going to TELL the nutritionist (who is super nice btw) that I have a problem with getting fixated on numbers and it sometimes derails me if they aren't looking as good as they should. And finally, this is the part that takes real balls on my part, I am going to suggest that they make this an option in the future, especially for their clients who have my kind of history with obesity.
All of these concepts seem so simple once I write them down, but they are a real struggle for me. So, if anyone reads this :) I CHALLENGE YOU! ASSERT YOURSELF!
Now for my 21 Day Challenge Recap for Tuesday. It went pretty good. I did have my 1 cheat meal for lunch because I promised my bro-n-law we'd go out to eat. I kept it light though w/chicken, rice, and soup. Other that that, the meal plan was as follows:
Breakfast - Good Morning Breakfast (ground turkey, cheese, rice, etc.)
Snack - Chicken & Fruit Bowl
(sorry for got to take a picture)
Snack - 3 Chocolate Almond Patties
Dinner - Ninja Tenderloin. (Tenderloin and spinach)
I aboslutely loved everything on the menu, except the 2 Chocolate Almond Patties. You can imagine the excitement when I saw Chocolate Almond Patties on the menu for yesterday! But they turned out to be rather bland brownie kind of things. No biggie, I just expected something different. I guess I should have known chocolate and diet don't go well together.
The really bad news? I didn't exercise yesterday and I don't think I will be able to today. I'm not trying to make excuses, but we are moving this Thursday so I have been swamped. I plan on making up for yesterday and today by exercising this weekend. Oh well, can't dwell on what can't be helped. I'll just have to follow my meal plan to a T :)
Thanks for reading and have a great day!
Monday, October 4, 2010
So I did, and it was totally worth it! I got up and stated my 21 Day My Fit Foods Challenge. Sunday Aaron and I went to get the food. It was so exciting! :) Yes, I'm a dork, excited about pre-packed foods. Well, this morning it was super convenient to grab what was on the schedule to eat for today.
Lunch - 2 Chicken Tacos
Snack - 1 Chicken Taco
Dinner - Chicken Fajitas
So how was it?
The oatmeal was pretty bland, but I expected it to be. It did fill me up like crazy.
The Fruit and yogurt was delicious! All of the fruit was so fresh! And dipping it in the yogurt made it like desert :)
The Chicken Tacos were really good too. They come in a pack of 3, 2 for lunch and 1 for a snack. I wanted to eat all of them. But, I'm glad I restrained myself.
The Chicken Fajitas were so good! There were 3 strips of chicken, 2 tortillas, and a ton of vegetables that were so fresh! There were even carrots! Who would have known those would be so freaking good in fajitas?
The Liver Cleanse
Another thing I have to do is the Liver Cleanse (12 oz of water, 6oz of pure cranberry juice, 1 TBSP of Vinegar). Oh it is so bitter, and it does smell like Easter eggs. But whatever, it isn't so disgusting that I want to throw up.
I also got a good workout in. Did about 30 minutes of strength training, then 30 minutes of cardio (elliptical/treadmill). It felt really awesome.
Last night I did start to feel kind of sick. I don't know if this is because I'm detoxing or what, but I started running fever. I took ibuprofen and went to bed. Unfortunately, I think it relaxed me too much and I did allow myself to sleep in this morning. I need the rest though, because I really can't afford to get sick. I did bring up my workout clothes, and I plan on spending an hour outside run/walking after work, which will be very nice considering this weather! :)
Hot 100 Update
1. Able to do 40 Situps in 1 Minute - Yesterday I did 12 sit ups. I'm going to do 12-15 sit ups every day this week. So, I'm on my way :)
2. Fit into a size 14 pants - Working on that per the exercise and the 21 day challenge. Right now I'm fitting well into a size 16.
3. From Houston to New Orleans (Walk/Bike/Run the mileage) - So far I've covered 7.8 miles out of 349. I know that these miles will really start to tick away when I start biking to work next week. I'll be covering 14 miles a day in biking alone, so I'm not too worried that I haven't covered that much ground yet. But hey, every mile counts! :)
So today, I'm going to share five songs that I'm liking today :)
1. Timbaland - The Way I Are ft. Keri Hilson, D.O.E., Sebastian
2. Orphaned Land - Of Temptation Born
3. "LIKE A G6" (OFFICIAL) FAR EAST MOVEMENT (FM) feat The Cataracs & Dev
4. Obsession - Animotion
5. Marilyn Horne - Una voce poco fa
Hope you enjoy them :) As you can see, I like a diverse set of music.
PS - I am starting the 21 day challenge today and so far so good. I'll be posting an update tonight from home with pics of the food/etc. So please check back!
Friday, October 1, 2010
Yay, it is October 1st. Start to a new month and that always makes me happy, new beginnings. I have a lot of new beginnings coming up, and I have been contemplating my level of commitment to these things (if that wasn't obvious from my post yesterday.) Today I'd like to go a little more in depth.
The first thing I guess I should understand is what exactly I'm committing to at this point in my life. I have long term goals, but I want to focus on my immediate goals that effect this next month of October. So here they are in a nut shell:
- Hot 100 Challenge
- My Fit Foods 21 Day Challenge
- Work Out 5 Days Per Week
- Bike to Work (Starting 10/12/2010)
That's it! Simple right? Yeh, not so much. When I start thinking about the details my stomach gets twisted into knots. I mean, with each goal there are usually all these little min-goals that help you to accomplish the big goals, so that means 4 goals can be transformed into 20+ mini-goals, and then, and then, and then...
Sheesh! Makes me feel like eating a big tub of ice cream! But I'm not going to. Instead I'm going to do something to help me understand my goals, the mini-goals that come along with it, and how they all relate to one another. (This one's for you Candy...) I'm going to make a flow chart! Yay! Flow chart time :)
(Click to make it bigger)
You can see the biggest bubble, and the one they all point to, is the Hot 100 Challenge which we all know about from a previous post.
The next biggest bubble is the 21 Day Challenge I'm starting this coming Monday. This is almost as big as the Hot 100 Challenge because, well, let's be honest; It is EXPENSIVE!
My Fit Foods is this place that makes food that they package, good for four days, and totally organic/healthy/and balanced. I have decided to commit to their 21 day challenge, where you commit to eat 3 meals and 2 snacks a day from them. No caffeine, no alcohol, but you do get to do this yummy (aka-yucky) liver cleanse thing every morning. Sounds great right? I mean, it isn't even gimmicky. It just takes the guess work out of cooking, and I really don't like cooking or worrying about what I'm going to eat. I mean, most of my problem with health/weight loss is food. It isn't even the control factor. It is just that I'm LAZY when it comes to food. (gasp, I know, I admitted it) I don't prepare, I don't really like preparing, and so I find myself driving through somewhere or giving into the temptation. My theory is if I already have all of my food I won't even be faced with that temptation. So, I'm willing to spend about $500 (that's right, OMG, I feel so freaking selfish doing this) on this super healthy food. Originally I thought "NO WAY!" But then I started breaking it down. No trips to the grocery store, nothing. This is my entire food cost for almost the whole month. I don't even have to do dishes.
I will admit one reason it is kind of expensive is that when you commit to the 21 day challenge a nutritionist makes out your food plan. Now, if it were me I would be eating the cheapest thing on the menu (oatmeal) every morning of the week. But, he has made me out a nice diverse meal plan. I mean really, it looks pretty tasty. After the challenge, if it is successful and I want to keep up purchasing things from them, I will try to take the cheaper route. I just can't stand the idea of blowing 500+ a month on food just for me. But this month I'm going all out. Lol, of course I'm going to try and cut back on every other possible expense, haha, so hopefully that will help with the guilt factor.
The other goals are pretty self explanatory.
Now, the problem I run into is I love goals, I just don't always accomplish them all because I like making so many of them. But this is it. Nothing else for the month of October, and you notice there is no weight goals. Because I don't care. All I want is that size 14 jeans by the end of the year. I know that is totally obtainable, yay! But back to what I was saying...I make all these goals, I get so excited and pumped up, and I don't face the reality of commitment (see yesterday's post).
Things are not always going to be easy.
Bam! That is the really difficult one. So from the get go I want to be completely honest with myself about the things that are not going to be easy about my goals. Here we go...complete honesty...
- Fear of looking stupid when riding my bike to work.
- Waking up at 4:00 a.m. to ride my bike to work and workout.
- Annoyance and having to get all my stuff together for the day at 4:00 a.m.
- Annoyance at having to take a shower at the gym.
- Annoyance at not being able to give Aaron extra hugs in bed in the morning (this is a BIG one).
- Annoyance when my husband makes, or asks me to make, something yummy for dinner for him. (Another BIG one)
- Irritation of not getting a 'fun' drink in the morning.
- Irritation on those occasions that water doesn't taste so good.
- Irritation when I have to drive up to Houston and pick up my food instead of going home and being lazy.
- Fear of embarrassment when I go out to eat with other people and having to explain what I'm doing. (Another BIG one)
- Fear of failure. (BIGGEST one)
So, that is about it for my commitments this October. I know that if I'm steadfast I can accomplish each and every one, no problem.
And when I'm done...
Well, let's just say a manicure, pedicure, haircut, waxing, and a new outfit is in order :)
Thanks for reading!