Thursday, September 30, 2010

Commitment

What does it mean?

Well to me it means being steadfast, not giving up even when things get difficult, put the full force of any energy I have behind something even if my energy level is low...

And ah, there is the moment of enlightenment;

EVEN IF MY ENERGY LEVEL IS LOW.

EVEN IF I'M TIRED.

EVEN IF IT IS A BAD DAY.

EVEN IF SOMEONE MAKES ME CRY.

EVEN IF I'M SICK.

EVEN IF THERE IS NO TIME.

EVEN IF I FEEL LAZY.

EVEN IF I FEEL BITCHY.

EVEN IF SOMEONE ELSE TRIES TO POINT ME IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION.

EVEN IF IT IS HARD.

EVEN IF I FEEL GOOD.

EVEN IF I WANT TO QUIT.

EVEN IF NO ONE IS ON MY SIDE.

EVEN IF I'M ALONE.

EVEN IF IT ISN'T WORKING LIKE I THOUGHT IT WOULD.

What does commitment REALLY mean to you? Sometime I look at it through rosy colored glasses. I don't think of what it will mean to me, that it won't be easy, that it won't be fun. When you start planning to commit to something, sometimes it seems a bit thrilling because it is new. But if you are in it for the long haul...you have to prepare yourself for the actual dedication necessary.

This may be one of those things that seems easy to understand, but I think when you really believe it, it can be a real breakthrough, one I hope I just made.

Thanks for reading!