Monday, November 16, 2009

ug

Indian food for lunch...at least I stayed away from the rice and stuff...only ate meat...still feel like a failure...ug!

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So I'm coming back and editing this message, because you know what? If I think I'm a failure than I am a failure. I'm so sick of the attitude that if I screw up I have to wait until the next day to fix it...or the next week...or the next month...

I'm living now so I can fix it now...or at least as soon as I get off work, haha. :) I really didn't eat that bad, and if I run tonight...well, then I am NOT going to feel bad about it!!

So there...yeh...

Yay! Monday!

Yes, I know it is strange...but I love Mondays. I like beginnings. They make me feel so optimistic! Not to mention this Monday has gone great so far.

I woke up at 5:30 a.m. (Ug) and I finally got my butt up to try running. It was funny, because I was looking at my shadow from the street lights. I remember when it used to be a big blob, haha. Now, it looks like I have this curve in my waste (crazy) but my hips are huge! Hahaha. I'm optimistic they will be getting slimmer, especially since I was able to run 8 times further than I used to, without stopping. I actually think I could have gone longer. I might try again once I get home from work (though I'm kind of embarrassed to run when people maybe be driving around and see me.) I want to see how far I can go before I feel like collapsing. I didn't get a stitch in my side and my shins didn't hurt. It was so amazing! I can't express how crazy this is. I used to literally be completely out of breath, feeling like I was going to die, after 30 seconds of running. Of course, I used to not be able to do more than 5 minutes on an elliptical. Now I can go indefinitely. Why is it so hard for me to believe things can change? They can! And that is so encouraging.

Oh and WOW! I just went to the site I use to calculate the calories I burn during exercise (Calorie Counter)...at my current age/weight/height...just running for 15 minutes (also walked for 5 minutes) I burned 240 calories!! Dude, I am SO going to run tonight!!

This morning when I finished running I had a banana, a kiwi, and some grapes (~150 calories). Then on the way to work I had a 100 calorie pack of almonds, and when I got to work I had some coffee (81 calories). So right now my subtotal is 331 calories. I'm going to try and keep the intake to around 1200 calories today. I forgot we have a contract luncheon today in building 12. Sucks. They are doing Mexican food. Gonna try not to eat too much though.

((PS-Sorry there are no pictures. I'm currently searching for the cord to upload my pics from my camera.))