Friday, January 1, 2010

Sassy & Thin in 2010!

Alright people, this is the official New Years day post! :)
Went to Candice's this morning and I weighed in at....


Whew! I was really worried that I gained a bunch of weight back. I can't tell you how happy that number made me. The lowest I've ever been is 199 and the highest is 269.

I've also taken some 1/1/2010 pictures :) Oh yeh!

Man, I know I have come a long way...but those pictures are still plenty of motivation (for my pics at my starting weight of 269 see my first ever post; Getting Started.)

So, what are my resolutions eh? Well, actually I'm not making any resolutions! At least not for new years...I made a list of things I want to do during my 26th year of life (as I am 26) and that is what I'm mainly going to stick to. I also joined the Perfect 10 Challenger, so those are kind of resolutions.

The main thing I want to do this year is change my life. Last night I took the dogs outside and looked up at the Blue Moon. Someone told me that they only occur once every 20 years, and for it to fall on New Years Eve? Well, I'm taking that as a sign, and a promise to myself. Last night, looking up at that beautiful moon, I promised myself that I would change my life this year, and I will. I am going to LIVE!

Now there is one thing I am going to do that is 'goal' oriented starting today. Every 21 days I am going to form a new habit, that means every 21 days I will make a new resolution. They won't necessarily be weight loss related.

My first one?

21 Days - Goal #1
Get Sassy! AKA - Girly
I am not the most girly of people, but I want to be. I want to be pretty, I want to dress nice, I want to do my hair everyday, I want to wear makeup every day.

So, for the next 21 days I will spend at least 30 minutes every morning grooming myself,
and I will spend 3 hours a week doing extra grooming (aka-shaving, etc.)
Man, my husband is gonna be so happy :)

So this post may not be that inspiring, but it will be a year from now.
Have a great New Year!

The "I'm not that big, am I?" Game

I think most of us have played it; the "I'm not that big sweetie, am I?" Game. Funny how you know when to ask the question, when you see someone that is WAY bigger than you are. I don't think it is anything against the other person. It is just something we all need every once and a while. We need to know we aren't the worst.

Well, since I have lost some weight sometimes the game changes into the "I wasn't that big was I?" game.

Why does this matter? I don't really know. If anyone has some psychological insight into why I want to ask this question of my spouse, please let me know.

Last night my husband and I were watching Nip/Tuck. It was an episode where the handsome and overly sexual Dr. Troy has sex with a fat woman named Lola. The show doesn't leave anything to the pretty much see Lola in the full buff...and it is, well, she is a BIG girl.

And you know I asked it,

"Sweetie, I was never that big, was I?"

I think you can guess the answer I got. I love my husband's honesty, but for some reason when he said, "Weeeeell, she might be a little bigger than you were, but yeh, you were about that big." It hurt.

I'm not mad at my hubby. I mean, when I get to my goal weight and ask if I look as good as Scarlett Johanson...well, then I know he is going to be telling the truth when he says, "Hells to the yeah!" :)

Maybe it makes me so sad, because that big girl will always be a part of me. It is scary that she will always be a possibility. But you know what? Scarlett Johanson is another possibility...all be it one I haven't experienced yet, but I'm getting there.

This is my challenge to all of us who have played the "I'm not that big, am I?" game. No more people! No more comparing ourself to the worst possibility just so we can be reassured we aren't scraping the bottom of the barrel. We know what is good bout us...

I have a pretty complexion,
I have silky healthy hair,
Sometimes my eyes are really beautiful,
I can sing really well,
I have a pretty neck,
My hips are sexy!,
I have a sexy phone voice (lol)...

And the list goes one...that is right! The list goes on!!

We are beautiful. Even if our weight (or past weight) defines us to an extent...there are other things that define me too. And I don't have to focus on the bad, I can choose (just as I have chosen the opposite in the past) to focus on the good.

So there is a new game ladies and gentleman!

"Sweetie? Am I as hot/sexy/beautiful/talented as....well, ME!"

And you know what? Being as hot/sexy/beautiful/talented as me...well, that is pretty freaking awesome!

I'll post my official New Years post later, but I wanted to get this one out there. Morning everybody :D