Thanks for putting up with me being so irritable yesterday. I guess we just all have our days. I have self analyzed, and I think I know why. It was a delayed reaction from some drama on Friday. I managed to kind of hold it together over the weekend, but when I got back to work on Monday there just weren't enough distractions, and I started thinking too much.
But now I'm back on track. It comes down to the fact that sometimes, you just have to be selfish. Doesn't matter what your religious or moral background are, this is your life, and you better live it! So, I'm over the stupidity of others. I'm not going to let them throw me off the track anymore. They might as well be pennies on the rail because I'll just squash them if they get in my way! Okay, enough with the train references. :D
Today I have been happily sticking to my diet...the menu is as follows:
Might sneak in a snack somewhere in there if I need one. Also, woke up this morning and did 43 minutes on the elliptical. Will also be doing two 20 minute wellness walks at work today. So yeh, great day so far :) I've got rehearsal tonight! Weee! I love being in this musical.
I hope everyone else in the bloggosphere is having a great day. Thanks for reading!
That's right. I am so IRRITABLE today. I hate being in this stupid office, I want to be outside where I can feel the sun, I want to eat a lot of GARBAGE, but I don't want to be fat, and I want to go home and sleep, and I would if I hadn't commuted with my husband so I have to wait till he gets off to go home, and I didn't wake up early enough to work out this morning, and RRRRRRrrrrrrRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRrrr.
So yeh, not the best of days. I can't wait to get off of work and take a nap...maybe that will help.
This last week I lost 7 pounds. YAY! Awesome right? Well, not so much. Don't get me wrong. It is great and I am very happy and excited. I am doing so well consistantly working out and consistantly eating within my calorie range. I also didn't want to lose 7 pounds. I just want to lose something. If it would have been 2 pounds, I can honestly say I'd be happy. And who knows. Maybe next week it will only be 1 pound or no pounds.
But the thing is, I've been here before. I've seen this weight, and I've seen a lower weight too. So I have these mixed emotions. I'm happy about the loss and my success in being healthy, but I don't want to brag or to make this big deal out of it.
And why is that? Could it be that I still have this urge to define myself only by that number on the scale. I could be smaller, it could be lower. And that is ALWAYS going to be a possibility. I can't define myself by these numbers. When I'm 150 pound am I going to be saying, "Oh man, I could weigh 140 pounds." That will be REALLY annoying. This journey is a forever one, and I don't want to define myself by the scale forever. So I'm stopping.
Sure, I've seen this weight before. But I'm not celebrating the weight. I'm celebrating a week of great consistency that equaled results, no matter what the result may be.
My point is that at some point we have to realize that focusing and defining ourselves by the number on the scale is not going to make us happy. And what is this all for if not to make ourselves happy? So while you are going to all this effort of changing your habits to exercise and eating healthy...you need to start changing your mind set too.
I'm so sleepy...I wish I had something inspirational to write, but right now I'm eating good, exercising daily...feeling good with not to many A'ha moments. Maybe I'm getting into the groove of a healthy lifestyle? Crazy.
But, for your entertainment, here is a pic of my and my best friend Candy with Yoda and Obi-wan.
That's right. I am officially a triathlete! Monday I completed my first triathlon. It was a beginners triathlon consisting of a 400 meter swim, 10K bike ride, and 5K run. The swim was soooo cold. Who what have thought that 70 degree water was so much colder than 78 degree water!? Coming out of the swim was like stepping into heaven because they had all of these extremely gorgeous guys helping you out. Haha. And man did I need their help! The whole transition from swimming to biking was very disorienting. But! After I got my balance I started running to the transition area :) just like a pro! Someone even called out 'That's the way to do it!' Haha. Biking was of course awesome. I made up some time during that portion. I just love biking, I love my bike. It is like a companion to me when I'm working out. Then the running...which actually wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I probably ran about half of it and walked the rest.
So after that amazing experience I want more!! That is right! My goal is to do 2 or 3 Sprint distance triathlons this year, and next year I'm going to come back to the CapTexTri and do the OLYMPIC distance! That is a 1 mile swim, 24 mile bike ride, and a 10K run! Woohoo! I am so going to do it!!!
I am addicted to this! This thing called LIFE! Why did I wait so long to start? I'll tell you why, because of this stupid weight. Sure it slows me down, but it doesn't mean I can't do the things I want. And I'll only get faster and faster as I shed the pounds. Being over weight is NOT an excuse not to LIVE! I am so excited to no longer be focusing on weight loss, to be waiting to start until I reach my infamous goal weight. I'll get there eventually, but something I will never get is the time I lost waiting. So no more of that!
Here are some events I'm planning on doing this year:::
June 19
Tour d’Italia Bike Ride((This one’s for you Alison!))
Thanks for putting up with me being so irritable yesterday. I guess we just all have our days. I have self analyzed, and I think I know why. It was a delayed reaction from some drama on Friday. I managed to kind of hold it together over the weekend, but when I got back to work on Monday there just weren't enough distractions, and I started thinking too much.
