The food, you perv! But really, I can't stop eating them. I get them in these 100 calorie packs, especially the ones that are cocoa flavored...omg, must stop buying them because I can't stop eating them.
So, today I'm feeling pretty awesome :)
Thus far I have eaten -
Egg whites, w/sauteed veggies, & cheddar cheese - 180 calories
3 100 calorie packs of nuts (told ya so) - 300 calories
Freebirds Steak Salad - 550 calories
And I'm drinking an energy drink right now - 180 calories
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subtotal - 1210
Honestly, a little high for so early in the day. BUT, tonight all I'm gonna have is a grilled turkey filet thinger and some sauteed squash/zuchini/potato/sweet potato mix thinger. That should be 300 calories tops...so, very close to 1500 calories today.
I can do this...
A couple of weeks ago I got this fortune cookie that said
"Don't pursue happiness - create it."
I think that applies to a lot of things, like:
"Don't pursue success - create it."
"Don't pursue weight loss - create it."
"Don't pursue great food - create it."
"Don't pursue anything really....just create it."
Because we honestly have the power to create whatever it is we want. In truth creating something often times involves pursuing it...but, when you realize you are actually creating it, then you realize YOU have the POWER to get something done. You can't just sit around waiting for it to happen.
Very excited about my workout today. I'm gonna lift weights for a good 45 minutes (at least), then I plan on getting on the Elliptical for 10 minutes, get my heart rate up, and then run for 1.5 miles! My first day of a mile and a half! I'm super excited to meet this goal! Then I'm going to cool down either walking for 10 minutes or getting back on the Elliptical for a bit.
Candice said something really neat today. (Hope she doesn't mind me stealing this), but she said, "Imagine if someone said 'You MUST gain 2 pounds this week!'" How many of us would have a problem doing that? I know I wouldn't. I mean, if someone told me I must gain 15 pounds this week I could probably do it. So reverse that, "You MUST lose 2 pounds this week!" Why does that sound so much harder? It shouldn't really. 2 pounds is 2 pounds, no matter what direction you are going.
All we have to do is exercise and watch what we eat, eventually the weight will come off.
I have also been thinking about my last post with the questions. It has really been helping me to think of things long term, like "How is this effecting where I want to be in five years?," etc. It is helping me to not sweat the small stuff and to really reconsider stupid decisions. It is funny that not sweating the small stuff is really preventing me from giving up. It is all such a mental game, with such physical results.
Oh, and BTW...apparently, I want to be an elephant in five years because I can't put down the nuts! Ah!
Monday, December 7, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
Friday!
Soooo tempted this morning to stop off at some fast food restaurant and get a hot breakfast...but I didn't, and I'm now enjoying a 60 calorie cup of hot chocolate. After this I'll have a bowl of instant oatmeal, if I'm hungry.
Last night I dyed my hair very dark brown, and this morning I love it! It looks much more natural and I think it looks elegant. This sounds very cheesy, but I've always wanted to have very dark hair in the winter...and now I do! :) Plus, it might snow today!! In Houston, Texas that is a BIG deal.
Last night I bought a new workout outfit. I refused to buy anything XL, and instead got a large pair of pants and shirt. They are both 'snug', but they do fit and aren't completely unflattering. I'm excited to watch them get baggier over the next couple of months. Also excited to wear them at my workout today...gonna do all my weights, 30 minutes on the elliptical, and then I'm going to run a mile. I want to get really warm before I run, because it is SOO freaking cold outside. Plus I want to push myself.
Last night I got a call from my part time job and they cut all my hours this weekend...which sucks, but is also awesome. That means I have plenty of time to workout like crazy and read and go to book club...and do laundry (yuck!). Might also hang out with Candy if she is feeling better (yay!).
So I saw this on a blog yesterday, and I kind of wanted to do it too....
What do you want to accomplish today?
Today I want to stay under 1500 calories, do all my weight training, do 30 minutes on the elliptical, and run 1 mile.
What would you like to have done by next week at this time?
By this time next week I want to find it easy to stay at 1500 calories a day, I'd also like to be able to run 1.5 mile w/out stopping comfortably.
What do you think will be the same/different in one month?
In a month I think I will be able to run 3 miles without stopping, I will begin swimming at a local pool, and I will start to save money for a road bike. I'm also going to start school!
What would you like to have done/changed one year from now?
One year from now I want to be at my healthy weight. I want to have finished everything on my goal list for this year. I want to start paying more towards my debts. I want to start dressing nicer.
What would you like your life to look like in five years? Really think about it. Five years from now, how old will you be? What will your relationships look like? Your job? Your body? Your home? In five years, describe yourself and your life... what you WANT it to be.
In 5 years...I want to have graduated from college, I want a job that I enjoy, I want to move to Austin, Texas and either purchase a new home or town home, I want to own an RV and a nice truck, I want to have good credit, I want to be working on my masters, I want to be in good enough shape to start training for the Iron Man Triathlon.
And then, when you have done that, go back to question #1 and tell me how what you are doing today is leading you to what you want to see in your life in five years.
I think that is pretty obvious :)
Last night I dyed my hair very dark brown, and this morning I love it! It looks much more natural and I think it looks elegant. This sounds very cheesy, but I've always wanted to have very dark hair in the winter...and now I do! :) Plus, it might snow today!! In Houston, Texas that is a BIG deal.
Last night I bought a new workout outfit. I refused to buy anything XL, and instead got a large pair of pants and shirt. They are both 'snug', but they do fit and aren't completely unflattering. I'm excited to watch them get baggier over the next couple of months. Also excited to wear them at my workout today...gonna do all my weights, 30 minutes on the elliptical, and then I'm going to run a mile. I want to get really warm before I run, because it is SOO freaking cold outside. Plus I want to push myself.
Last night I got a call from my part time job and they cut all my hours this weekend...which sucks, but is also awesome. That means I have plenty of time to workout like crazy and read and go to book club...and do laundry (yuck!). Might also hang out with Candy if she is feeling better (yay!).
So I saw this on a blog yesterday, and I kind of wanted to do it too....
What do you want to accomplish today?
Today I want to stay under 1500 calories, do all my weight training, do 30 minutes on the elliptical, and run 1 mile.
What would you like to have done by next week at this time?
By this time next week I want to find it easy to stay at 1500 calories a day, I'd also like to be able to run 1.5 mile w/out stopping comfortably.
What do you think will be the same/different in one month?
In a month I think I will be able to run 3 miles without stopping, I will begin swimming at a local pool, and I will start to save money for a road bike. I'm also going to start school!
What would you like to have done/changed one year from now?
One year from now I want to be at my healthy weight. I want to have finished everything on my goal list for this year. I want to start paying more towards my debts. I want to start dressing nicer.
What would you like your life to look like in five years? Really think about it. Five years from now, how old will you be? What will your relationships look like? Your job? Your body? Your home? In five years, describe yourself and your life... what you WANT it to be.
In 5 years...I want to have graduated from college, I want a job that I enjoy, I want to move to Austin, Texas and either purchase a new home or town home, I want to own an RV and a nice truck, I want to have good credit, I want to be working on my masters, I want to be in good enough shape to start training for the Iron Man Triathlon.
And then, when you have done that, go back to question #1 and tell me how what you are doing today is leading you to what you want to see in your life in five years.
I think that is pretty obvious :)
Thursday, December 3, 2009
A bit stressed but good...
Yesterday I know I went over my calorie limit. I probably hit 2500 calories...but, I also ran a mile and did weights. I really don't feel bad about it. I just care about that mile right now...I gotta push it up to 3 miles.
Still, today I'm going to try to keep my calories in check. It feels good not to beat myself up about splurging yesterday, but I also feel like it is a waist of time not to eat right if I'm going to the trouble of running a mile. I can't explain what a HUGE change of mindset that is. To not feel soooo guilty about going over my goal calorie range that I go into a free fall of binging. Instead, I don't want to waist my time eating crappy food? What a wonderful way to think of it! Not even waist my time, but I don't want to waist my effort.
On an irritating note, the VW sprung an oil leak today. Rg. I have a feeling it is an easy fix, but I really don't like losing my newly found independence even for a day.
But, my husband did promise me he'd take me to the gym today whenever I wanted. My boss has a meeting at 1, so I will probably go then. I want to Run a mile, duh :) or at least go as long as I can...then walk the rest of the big trail at work. Depending on how long that takes me I may also jump on the elliptical for a bit. Of course I need to do my ab work.
Right now I'm going to go take a walk out side. I got a scarf and some gloves yesterday since it has been pretty chilly outside.
Oh...almost forgot...
RUNNING SCHEDULE
(in order to run 5K by 1/9/09)
12/2/09-12/6/09 : Run 1 Mile 5 days per week
12/7/09-12/13/09 : Run 1.5 Miles 5 days per week
12/14/09 - 12/20/09 : Run 2 Miles 5 days per week
12/21/09 - 12/27/09 : Run 2.5 Miles 5 days per week
12/28/09 - 1/3/09 : Run 3 Miles 5 days per week
1/4/09 - 1/8/09 : Run 3.5 Miles 5 days per week
Still, today I'm going to try to keep my calories in check. It feels good not to beat myself up about splurging yesterday, but I also feel like it is a waist of time not to eat right if I'm going to the trouble of running a mile. I can't explain what a HUGE change of mindset that is. To not feel soooo guilty about going over my goal calorie range that I go into a free fall of binging. Instead, I don't want to waist my time eating crappy food? What a wonderful way to think of it! Not even waist my time, but I don't want to waist my effort.
On an irritating note, the VW sprung an oil leak today. Rg. I have a feeling it is an easy fix, but I really don't like losing my newly found independence even for a day.
But, my husband did promise me he'd take me to the gym today whenever I wanted. My boss has a meeting at 1, so I will probably go then. I want to Run a mile, duh :) or at least go as long as I can...then walk the rest of the big trail at work. Depending on how long that takes me I may also jump on the elliptical for a bit. Of course I need to do my ab work.
Right now I'm going to go take a walk out side. I got a scarf and some gloves yesterday since it has been pretty chilly outside.
Oh...almost forgot...
RUNNING SCHEDULE
(in order to run 5K by 1/9/09)
12/2/09-12/6/09 : Run 1 Mile 5 days per week
12/7/09-12/13/09 : Run 1.5 Miles 5 days per week
12/14/09 - 12/20/09 : Run 2 Miles 5 days per week
12/21/09 - 12/27/09 : Run 2.5 Miles 5 days per week
12/28/09 - 1/3/09 : Run 3 Miles 5 days per week
1/4/09 - 1/8/09 : Run 3.5 Miles 5 days per week
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Good but full...
Feeling good today...I woke up feeling pretty and thin, which is always nice. I think it is because I slept in my makeup, so I didn't have to see my face without it, haha :)
I did eat way too much indian food at lunch today...but I'm going to try and get in a really good workout this afternoon. Probably won't have much for dinner...maybe a salad and that's it.
A girl at work has invited me to do a Triathlon with her in May...I really want to. I'm afraid that I won't be able to be ready for it...but that kind of attitude is going to get me no where! I found a local pool I can train at so I think I'm going to shoot for running a 5K on 1/9/2010...and if I can finish that I will start training at that pool 2-3 times a week in the morning. I might need to take a swimming lesson, because while I can swim, I'm worried my form may be lacking. I also want to buy a road bike in January or February at the latest and start training on that then. This year is going to be sooo fun and busy! I can't wait. It just so happens that 1/9 falls on the first meeting of the scrap booking club I'm going to start going to. I am so going to take a picture of me at the end of the 5K and put it in the scrapbook!
I did eat way too much indian food at lunch today...but I'm going to try and get in a really good workout this afternoon. Probably won't have much for dinner...maybe a salad and that's it.
A girl at work has invited me to do a Triathlon with her in May...I really want to. I'm afraid that I won't be able to be ready for it...but that kind of attitude is going to get me no where! I found a local pool I can train at so I think I'm going to shoot for running a 5K on 1/9/2010...and if I can finish that I will start training at that pool 2-3 times a week in the morning. I might need to take a swimming lesson, because while I can swim, I'm worried my form may be lacking. I also want to buy a road bike in January or February at the latest and start training on that then. This year is going to be sooo fun and busy! I can't wait. It just so happens that 1/9 falls on the first meeting of the scrap booking club I'm going to start going to. I am so going to take a picture of me at the end of the 5K and put it in the scrapbook!
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Yesterday I did good...I at within my calorie limit of 1500 calories, I went for two 20 min walks at work, I lifted weights for an hour, I ran half a mile...I still feel fat :( Just gotta keep going.
It will come off, it will come off, it will!
So, last night at my part time job I was talking to this guy and he was like, "How come all the girls are either really pretty and stupid...or they're smart and ugly? Isn't there some median?"
I laughed and said, "Duh, me!"
He just looked at me and didn't say anything. I know I'm not completely stupid, so that must mean I'm ugly. I would rather be stupid honestly...
Fat = Ugly :(
I really cannot wait for the day I get hit on. Knowing me I probably won't realize it is happening...sigh.
It will come off, it will come off, it will!
So, last night at my part time job I was talking to this guy and he was like, "How come all the girls are either really pretty and stupid...or they're smart and ugly? Isn't there some median?"
I laughed and said, "Duh, me!"
He just looked at me and didn't say anything. I know I'm not completely stupid, so that must mean I'm ugly. I would rather be stupid honestly...
Fat = Ugly :(
I really cannot wait for the day I get hit on. Knowing me I probably won't realize it is happening...sigh.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
1/21
Mark Twain:
"Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man,
but coaxed downstairs a step at a time."
but coaxed downstairs a step at a time."
Motivation pic of the day:Today's Goals:
Consume 1200 calories or less
Drink 8 bottles of water
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Breakfast:
Fruit Bowl - 208 Calories
(Cantaloupe, Grapes, Pineapple, Honey Dew, Cottage Cheese)
Coffee - 85 Calories
(2 creamers, 5 Sweet n' Lows)
1 Bottle of WaterLunch:
3 Chicken Salad Rolls w/Sweet Chile Sauce - 580 Calories
2 Bottles of WaterSnack:
Skittles Fun Size - 80 Calories
Dinner:
Michelina Lean Gourmet Chicken Club Flatbread - 280 Calories
5 Bottles of Water
Calorie Total - 1233 Calories
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Ramblings:So, today I'm going to try and start a new format to my blog. As you can see, it is going to be a motivational quote, a motivational picture, my goals, what I have eaten, and then me talking, lol. Per the always good example of my best bud Candy, I'm gonna try to keep this up for 21 days and make a habit of it.
I am FINALLY feeling somewhat motivated. Unfortunately, until I have my own car I may not be able to work out as much as I like...but, that doesn't mean I can't eat healthy and make some kind of difference. So, when I can't work out I'm going to try and keep my calories to 1200 or less. That should keep me at a deficit of 1000 calories (loss of 2 pounds a week).
So, it has occurred to me multiple times that it is all mental! And I can conquer my brain. I am really good at turning my brain off and controlling myself...usually. But, when it comes to food, that is the one thing. It is my kryptonite. Why is that? It drives me crazy that I don't have control of it. Is it really that hard to just not desire food? How sad is it that I live every day of my life, not paycheck to paycheck, but meal to meal?? It really does make me sick to think about. I hate when something has control of me, and that food has control of me REALLY bothers me. How much time do we spend daily thinking about, preparing, and eating food? How much other stuff could I get done if I didn't spend so much time on it? Beyond weight loss I really want to have control of my body's need for food. I don't want to starve or anything...but I want to have control enough so that my physical demands do not touch my emotional thoughts. I want it to be like going to the bathroom...I feel a sensation...I eat...I don't keep pushing trying to eat more...I just do what I need to do and get out of there. Lol, hopefully that makes some kind of sense.
I had a great lunch today with Jennifer. I got the coolest fortune in my fortune cookie..."Don't pursue happiness -- create it."I like that :)...maybe I should use the numbers from it to play the lotto tonight, lol.
Something else, Aaron and I are going to look at two prospective cars tonight. One is a 1995 Geo Metro and one is a 1999 Hyundai Accent. Neither will be very exciting cars to drive, but they are both super cheap ($850 max) and they both get great mpg (35 mpg +). So, if they are in half way decent condition I will probably buy one. If I do I will have enough money to buy a body bugg! :) That would make me so happy. I will also invest in some new running shoes, and then put the rest of the excess money in the bank, pay off a credit card, or something smart. Or maybe I will do the not smart thing and buy a roof rack, lol.
Hopefully tomorrow I will have a car and be posting about how awesome of a workout I had in the morning because I got up at the break of done and went to the gym :) Hopefully I'll be buying a Body Bugg tomorrow. Cross your fingers everyone! And have a great night!
Monday, November 23, 2009
In this, my 26th year...
I will reach my goal weight.
I will learn to surf.
I will ride in the MS150.
I will run a 5K race.
I will go back to school.
I will audition for Cabaret.
I will go on a vacation.
I will take a girlie day every month & get a manicure/pedicure.
I will explore my spiritual/religious beliefs, and will be open & honest about them.
I will start a scrapbook.
I will go to a club (with Candice).
I will dye my hair blond.
I will sky dive.
I will go camping.
I will start to learn a new language.
I will take a dance class.
I will get Aaron a really cool birthday gift.
I will plant a garden.
I will dress up for the Renaissance Festival.
I will take a camping kayaking trip.
I will dress up for Halloween.
I will autocross.
I will go to the drag strip and drive the 1/4 mile.
I will take off one weekend without an agenda, and just go.
I will watch the launch of a space shuttle.
I will make love in a public place.
I will tell someone off...I mean really, tell them off.
I will get a tattoo.
I will learn to surf.
I will ride in the MS150.
I will run a 5K race.
I will go back to school.
I will audition for Cabaret.
I will go on a vacation.
I will take a girlie day every month & get a manicure/pedicure.
I will explore my spiritual/religious beliefs, and will be open & honest about them.
I will start a scrapbook.
I will go to a club (with Candice).
I will dye my hair blond.
I will sky dive.
I will go camping.
I will start to learn a new language.
I will take a dance class.
I will get Aaron a really cool birthday gift.
I will plant a garden.
I will dress up for the Renaissance Festival.
I will take a camping kayaking trip.
I will dress up for Halloween.
I will autocross.
I will go to the drag strip and drive the 1/4 mile.
I will take off one weekend without an agenda, and just go.
I will watch the launch of a space shuttle.
I will make love in a public place.
I will tell someone off...I mean really, tell them off.
I will get a tattoo.
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