172 Days

You may have noticed that I added a gadget to my blog that is a countdown until the 9th of May next year. On that date I will audition for a musical called Cabaret. If you've ever seen this musical, you probably already know that the cast members run around naked half the entire time, haha. Not only am I auditioning for the musical, I'm going to audition for the lead female role. It is a very sexy and sensual part. I've got to be comfortable with my body. So...you can probably see why in 172 days I REALLY need to be very close to my goal weight.





I'm shooting for 156 pounds.
Now what does that mean, plan wise?

Goals - to lose 2 pounds per week.
In order to do that I will need to have a 1000 calorie deficit.

So, daily I will need to consume ~1500 calories and I will need to burn approximately 250 calories through exercise.

This goal is attainable, and it really lightens the stress on me. Too often I feel like I need to rush. I end up barely eating, and then I binge. Or I get disappointed in my results...then I binge again.

SO I've decided to do something radical. I'm going to throw away my asshole (mine and candy's affectionate term for my scale). Or, at least, it will be finding a new home with Candy for a while. I have to get my mind off the numbers, at least weight wise. I need to focus on how I feel and sticking to my nutritional goals. So, candy, if you are reading this...I'm bringing my scale up tomorrow and you are keeping it until...well, i don't know when, lol. Use your better judgment :)

So far today, I've had 666 calories (yikes! scary number)...that means I can eat another 834 calories. This should be super easy since I'm going to a salad bar for lunch, and then tonight I work at Best Buy (AKA-won't be eating again today).

This morning when I woke up my shins were killing me after running yesterday...so I opted to stay in bed and sleep until 7:30, haha. The cool thing is I clocked how far I ran yesterday...it was a whole mile! That doesn't sound too impressive to type, but man, it really made me happy. I really think I can get up to running 3 miles by 1/1/2010.

Okay, well, I should probably do some work. Thanks for reading :)

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Indian food for lunch...at least I stayed away from the rice and stuff...only ate meat...still feel like a failure...ug!

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So I'm coming back and editing this message, because you know what? If I think I'm a failure than I am a failure. I'm so sick of the attitude that if I screw up I have to wait until the next day to fix it...or the next week...or the next month...

I'm living now so I can fix it now...or at least as soon as I get off work, haha. :) I really didn't eat that bad, and if I run tonight...well, then I am NOT going to feel bad about it!!

So there...yeh...

Yay! Monday!

Yes, I know it is strange...but I love Mondays. I like beginnings. They make me feel so optimistic! Not to mention this Monday has gone great so far.

I woke up at 5:30 a.m. (Ug) and I finally got my butt up to try running. It was funny, because I was looking at my shadow from the street lights. I remember when it used to be a big blob, haha. Now, it looks like I have this curve in my waste (crazy) but my hips are huge! Hahaha. I'm optimistic they will be getting slimmer, especially since I was able to run 8 times further than I used to, without stopping. I actually think I could have gone longer. I might try again once I get home from work (though I'm kind of embarrassed to run when people maybe be driving around and see me.) I want to see how far I can go before I feel like collapsing. I didn't get a stitch in my side and my shins didn't hurt. It was so amazing! I can't express how crazy this is. I used to literally be completely out of breath, feeling like I was going to die, after 30 seconds of running. Of course, I used to not be able to do more than 5 minutes on an elliptical. Now I can go indefinitely. Why is it so hard for me to believe things can change? They can! And that is so encouraging.

Oh and WOW! I just went to the site I use to calculate the calories I burn during exercise (Calorie Counter)...at my current age/weight/height...just running for 15 minutes (also walked for 5 minutes) I burned 240 calories!! Dude, I am SO going to run tonight!!

This morning when I finished running I had a banana, a kiwi, and some grapes (~150 calories). Then on the way to work I had a 100 calorie pack of almonds, and when I got to work I had some coffee (81 calories). So right now my subtotal is 331 calories. I'm going to try and keep the intake to around 1200 calories today. I forgot we have a contract luncheon today in building 12. Sucks. They are doing Mexican food. Gonna try not to eat too much though.

((PS-Sorry there are no pictures. I'm currently searching for the cord to upload my pics from my camera.))

Not doing so good :(

So, this week has not been going so well. I really need to make a trip to the grocery store and pick up some stuff that is healthy. Aaron (my hubby) and I have just been eating what is quick and easy to make. I've got to stop that. I have a little refrigerator in my garage. I think I might bring it up to work so that I can keep healthy stuff at my desk. I really hope I get a car soon. That will give me the freedom to come to work early and go to the gym.

On another note...less than a week till NEW MOON! Eeeeeeee! JAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACOB OMG! (yes, i know candy is the only one that will understand this, and that is okay.)

A couple of goals to reach by 1/1/2010:
-Be able to run 5K (3 miles) w/out stopping
-Be down to 180 pounds (currently at ~200)
-Be Microsoft Office Certified (totally not weight loss related, but whatever)

Thanks for reading :)

Getting Started!

My best friend Candice is the most awesome friend in the world! :) She came up with this awesome idea to catalog our weight loss journeys through pictures and descriptions. It has really gotten me excited. Hopefully I will be able to post daily with pictures describing the previous day. I've got new batteries in my camera and I'm ready to go!

Since I don't have any pictures yet, might as well post some before pictures. These are me at 269 pounds (at least). Yikes!